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Today, I had an argument with somebody I really care about. It was because I think this person calling herself my ' friend ' always see her and never ask herself ' what do she think ? '. I know this because today I realize no matter what I said, I already have the same answer : ' It's not my fault, look at you first '. Yes it's not a proof I know ... And I know too I'm not the best person in the world, I have bad parts, a lot, but I hope I have good parts too. The point is that it happen all the time : no matter how hard I try be kind, patient and nice, people finish by use me or talk to me for help with something and stop see the human in me. Only the ' good friend ' then I become so f*cking upset and say what I think, and start again, no friend, just me alone with my pain.
I realize I play too much the ' i'm fine ' game. Always answer ' yes i'm fine thanks ' to everybody ask, for didn't have to explain why i'm sad, and like that don't be alone again. I didn't tell the people upset me they upset me. I don't want to meet people, or act friendly with stranger, only want to stay alone, like that nobody can hurt me. But I suffer from that. And that's all my fault. And I can't say it to anybody. I only want people to live happily. . . Not suffer from my moods.
At the moment i'm the mood : if somebody talk to me I will answer what they want to hear, no matter if it's not what I think. But I will answer ' No ' to all the 'request' people send to me.
I'm sad, maybe a little depressed. I can't think of anything happy and wan't to cry for hours when I just read the word ' Wesker'. I didn't sleep well, and when I sleep it's for have nightmare. I don't do art because I think all I done is ugly.
Like always, i'm not okay but it's just a phase. It will pass.
And I really want to say thanks to all of my friends who really care, yes yes, like you Ju'. You're the first in 20 years of living that ever call me and left a message on my phone just for ask how I am. ♥
I will may connect just for the notifications and didn't answer. If internet want.
Thanks for read, and Take Care.
I realize I play too much the ' i'm fine ' game. Always answer ' yes i'm fine thanks ' to everybody ask, for didn't have to explain why i'm sad, and like that don't be alone again. I didn't tell the people upset me they upset me. I don't want to meet people, or act friendly with stranger, only want to stay alone, like that nobody can hurt me. But I suffer from that. And that's all my fault. And I can't say it to anybody. I only want people to live happily. . . Not suffer from my moods.
At the moment i'm the mood : if somebody talk to me I will answer what they want to hear, no matter if it's not what I think. But I will answer ' No ' to all the 'request' people send to me.
I'm sad, maybe a little depressed. I can't think of anything happy and wan't to cry for hours when I just read the word ' Wesker'. I didn't sleep well, and when I sleep it's for have nightmare. I don't do art because I think all I done is ugly.
Like always, i'm not okay but it's just a phase. It will pass.
And I really want to say thanks to all of my friends who really care, yes yes, like you Ju'. You're the first in 20 years of living that ever call me and left a message on my phone just for ask how I am. ♥
I will may connect just for the notifications and didn't answer. If internet want.
Thanks for read, and Take Care.
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Hi all ! Today is the day I just get tired of DeviantArt 3D side of the community. Also, the community about 3D models from games. Most of them are just pure rude & selfish people thinking they are over other people. This is sad, and I miss the time we where all on the same step. A full community almost always there for... wait, we never was that kind of community. :/ That sound like i'm a small kid, but it's just that I also wonder how said people can have so many watchers... Yet, also i'm disappointed by the new deviantart, it doesn't even is useful for anything. So, that's it, my models & others commissions move to my Patreon, base price is 5$ but paying it yo get access to unlimited number of Game Conversion, as long as you are my Patron. It still cost a 15$ minimum for get unlimited amount of 3D Art Render or Drawing. All my news will be posted directly into Patreon, yet I'm still around for check said account of pure rude people as they are the only ones for now that can get
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About the change of DeviantArt, I said I would not be here anymore. It doesn't mean I wanna erase my account, but that I won't share anything more on here. I think, maybe some of my followers here would like to knows where to find me, or my arts, now. Tumblr : https://kelluarts.tumblr.com/ Wix : https://kwesker.wixsite.com/kelluarts Twitter : https://twitter.com/KelluArts Instagram : https://www.instagram.com/kelluarts/ It still doesn't mean I won't check my notifications or notes, so you can still talk with me as you wish. n_n :hug:
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Just a quick journal entry to let you know I need money. /goout/ I mean, everybody need money, I know that... xD But my cat was heal just before Christmas and now I have to monthly paid around 100 €, which seem to be around 114 $ for 4 months... What is truly a high thing according to my low budget and the Christmas period. Q^Q
No, I'm not asking for ' don ' but more if anybody would be happy to ' Commission ' me, maybe a late Christmas gift, maybe a Birthday Gift for people born in January.
All this will be special Commission, Note me with the Information and the Price that you find right and I will tell you if it's
My list of 10 favs Characters
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RULES:
1. You must list ten different favourite characters from ten different fandoms
2. Tag 10 people who must do the same.
1) Surprisingly Albert Wesker. ( Resident Evil ) { Sure everybody know why. ;) }
2) Sebastian Castellanos. ( The Evil Within ) { Lost everything, find is everything, then lost it again. Poor thing. ♥ }
3) Nathan Prescott. ( Life is Strange ) { Another poor thing, I really like his personality ! }
4) Aizen Sosuke. ( Bleach ) { Only ♥ ♥ ♥ }
5) Christopher Armès. ( Shadow Survivors ) { Yes, I list my own OC as i'm out of ideas. But he is so cool, and almost n
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